i'm ok

yes, i wasn't alright but now, im ok. thanks for those who still care. Your spiritual encouragement and support came at the right time. A million and zillion thanks!=)

trust

it's solely an insurmountable hardship for me to trust. Tell me why is it so difficult to completely believe what a person says or does? Can trust overcome every single doubt you have in mind? i personally do not think so. but sometimes, besides trusting a person what else can you do? ask the person to prove it to you? It may become so routined that it turns out to be a kind of responsibility that a person needs to fulfill in order to achieve what the person wants and gradually become insincere whether in deeds or words.

I will keep questioning myself. I need to think otherwise i might be trapped myself in dubious thoughts.

what possibly can unforgiveness lead to?

1) hatred
2) resentment
3) bitterness
4) grudges
5) revenge
6) broken relationships
7) escapism

and the list goes on...
Is there anyone whom has undergone any total breakthrough or healing under God's grace and forgiveness? Is there any chances stand for a once broken relationship before? I mean earthly relationship.

I am completely agree to what a friend of mine told me. Not to be too emtionally involved now as i am going to sit for my finals soon. Alright, i guess whatever it is now, i just set it aside first and settle it sooner or later.

This nagging pain still lingers.

i just hate it!!

I just hate it! Knowing that today it's going to be the last day of everything. My last class, my last CF meeting, my last lecture and what not. I am not sure whether am i ready to leave from my comfort zone. Seriously, i am just clueless about "what's next?"
Well, i just hate to have found out something too. Soemthing unpleasant. i wish i have someone beside to let me lash out. i wish i could undo it. it didn't come across my mind that it'd affect my feelings so much and now im emotionally drained.

I am not sure whether am i ready going it through for the second time. The most hurtful time is going to be this if it is true. I wish i dont have to do this..