What now?

Having received such an important call alleviates me from my seemingly unending anxiety. A new call on my life,'welcome back to student's life again'. It appears to be appealing,however it is a different type of a student's life or rather, it will be a working student's life.
The first class now clashes with my church camp that I have been longing to go. I am left with choices to make, unfortunately a difficult one. What am I suppose to do now?

Close the bargain

I just went in and told her,"Regarding my further studies, I have made up my mind. I will stick my what I want to do for now."
Well, "she" replied,"Okay, since you have made up your mind, I wish to tell you about this that the college will always create a niche for the academic staff to grow with the college. Your department is planning to offer Diploma in English soon (no specified time/year). So i guess in your situation, the institution next door offers a better job prospect for you."
I thought for sometime after I left her room. I could almost say that what she meant was I am making a big mistake here. What she recommended for me is still the best for me to grow with the college. Now since I am playing in my own game,and not in hers, I might as well have some other plans and the college might not fully support me in some ways especially the opportunity to progress in teaching field. Maybe she's expecting me to tender my resignation letter upon completing my studies and she might not be interested to help me to grow in the area I'm interested to work in.
Well, at least the bargain is closed. No more dragging and persuading me to be part of another research paper or to work with someone who is brilliant yet compelling sometimes.
I am not expecting financial aid from the college to achieve my dream. Regardless of how she feels, I still pray that she will understand someday. I can heave a sigh of relief now and move on. The fear is gone because He truly lives!

The journey goes on

I enjoyed the days filled with work. Pastor's current sermon, depicting work as a gift from God in the book of Genesis changed my perspective on work itself. It is a "gift" rather than perceiving it as an unbearable burden sometimes. In fact, the very first worker of this entire universe is God Himself. Creating the earth and the living things. Well, He said it was good and indeed very good. However, sin entered the picture and the whole work has become tiresome, burdensome, purposeless and God punished Cain to be a restless wanderer. I could be like Cain most of the time but I tried at my level's best not to. And Cheng Yee, I have decided on what to do. I am not sure of the path ahead but I need to make attempts to find out even more.
Presently all my work for this semester is almost done. I have to put an end to this chapter and embark on a new one after Chinese New Year. I am glad that a new year begins and I have to stop where I am and reflect upon my previous journey. Where did I come from, why I need to stop and how to move forward. The journey goes on. My parents are very supportive and I am very grateful to God for that. He has blessed me with the best parents on earth, "when we have no friction on certain issues =)". Now, the journey ahead is not a bed of roses. I have to be prepared with whatever that comes my way. Even in the toughest moment, God has carried me through.

You are a terrfific writer!

I just couldn't put down the book once I start reading it. Thank you so much for the interesting insights given and led me into a great world of imagination.

Exam, exam and marking!

Having to mark your students' work is not easy. You may turn out writing like them in the end. It was difficult to maintain how much you have gleaned in learning English and within "God knows how long", your English could be disastrous...
My current leisure activities: jogging, playing tennis, reading (if I have the time)collecting wrapping papers, handbags and shoes!!
Trying to start a new set of collectibles..which is rather pricy but I know that's what I long to do..Can anyone tell me the wonders of LEGO?=)
I don't understand why but I have a desire to own a set of it..They look gorgeous!

Balik Kampung

'Balik kampung', a very localised maxim that reminds me of my vocation now. I rarely blog. This one is sort of a come back after a long time.
The day before I came back, my boss worked me until 9.05pm. It was an insane idea of driving back right after my work and immediately began my new job the next day at 8.30 am. Thank God His sufficient grace and mercy as I travelled home with Andrew. Poor guy. He purposely waited at the car park for me that entire night to ensure that I could make it back safely and he offered to drive me home. After all, the journey seemed long and tiring. I slept soundly in the car.
The first day I arrived at the college gate, I was anticipating for new challenges and a fruitful briefing or orientation to kick off my day. My first day was rather short, simple and sweet. Nothing much from the senior lecturers but kept asking us to be careful with the students' mischief.
Then came the second, third and going to be the forth day soon! Still not much work or preparation to be done. I have to wait for the new textbooks in order to plan my lessons. As for now, I better start reading some stuff about class management, culture and psychology for me to comprehend deeper regarding the post-modern students' mentality.
I just returned from Ipoh with my parents. Basically Kampar is just a nice place for me now. No rushing. No deadline. No pressure meeting with boss. No proposal. No editing. No changes and what not..
Balik kampung..oh...Balik kampung...the feeling is just indescribable..it's raining out there.
Yay, i can get to sleep when it rains and I love it.

In action again

Another out-of-routine day begun as I woke up this morning. There were loads of things in my mind. First of all, I needed to keep the house spick and span. To keep myself sane, surprisingly i did some academic read up. And to make myself feel comforted and assured, I needed the word of God. The time was ticking too fast. I couldn't even sit down and think of what I desire to do with my one and only life.
The morning was somehow occupied with phone calls and house chores.
Then came afternoon...a pleasant surprise was given by my sister.
The surprise was, I met with Victor. Victor is now my sister's colleague and not anymore soon. Quite a bit to catch up with each other though. He seems to be still the Victor that I know of. Good to know that too. Somehow, we cut down a lot of crappy jokes. We had a simple yet meaningful fellowship time with each other. He brought the issue of opportunity cost. Why so?
It is decision making time for me. These thoughts lasted throughout the afternoon and partly evening until i decided to blog it. May be it helps to release what I need not have to contain within myself. Of course I do hope not to make the wrong step but how do i define my wrong step? I am still searching for the answer. Faith must come with action. Therefore, this will make me constantly be on my toes to pray, believe and act.

Yet it is a day without regrets

Today, the sun seems brighter. The air appears to be filled with invigorating fragrance.
I have made an effortless decision earlier of the day, "Not to go to work". Not only because I felt tired and fed up with my work, moreover, it was because of a nagging migraine pain resulted since the day before yesterday. However, my conscience whispered to me not to simply take emergency leave without a valid reason. Eventually, I was more than convinced that I needed the break. Break away from the weekday routines. The routines are dull if I started my day without remembering to whom my life shall be dedicated for. Only surviving on the sole daily bread everyday,I know I need to take time to be still and quiet before Him. Although the entire day I was occupied with some other things such as doing household chores, brisk walking in the morning and you-know-what (of course shopping!), today was extraordinary for me. Thanks to the one whom has given me this day. These may not sound as special to others, but strangely, i find that even doing household chores is comforting for me and it is capable to draw me closer to Him. Despite having to sweat all over the body, I enjoyed managing the household and cooking. Perhaps, it may merely last for only a while. I don;t mind as long as it helps me to move on with my life, discovering new leisure. (oh, it reminds me a lot of Camp Cameron)..
Well, waiting for someone to come home has been part of my agenda lately. I will start to prepare for dinner as well as for the following day's breakfast. Unfortunately, i have spoken too soon. Sometimes, i find doing all this can be frustrating too soemtimes...
Today, is still a day for me to treasure. Seldom will I be able to live my day like today unless of course I am still a student but I have learned to grow up and take responsibility of the decision I make. May I grow to become more mature spiritually and find my strength renew day after day. Tomorrow will be a better one for me, I believe.