His will or my will?

A constant struggle it will be when i come to question myself about this. I dont want to evade this issue as a christian. Warning us again and again, Mr.lian urge us to handle this delicately with much prayer and meditation on His word. Even the real life example cited from the Bible about how Jesus struggled to pray that may the cup of suffering be taken away, not His will but God's will be done. Occasionally or perhaps most of the time, i wanted God to fit in to my plan when im supposedly to let myself to fit into the Master's plan. The study of Romans 9, really gave an insightful thoughts especially in this area which i always befuddled with. If God allows you to have your own way, according to Mr.Lian, we shouldnt be too happy first because our ways are comparatively destructive to His ways. He consents freedom to choose your own way out of His patience. But what if things dont end well, what am i going to do? What if He were out of patience and consumed me with His wrath?oh..the picture in my mind is terribly left in utter desolation.
Hopefully at this juncture, im on the right track to walk in His ways. Yes, let Him give me life in His ways.